Just making my post from Jalapenos in grand bend, suckas

GRANDE BURRITO FTW

HAPPY INTERNATIONAL CAPS LOCK DAY

By the way, I'm an EMT now.

This rain is ruining my fucking life

Today, just about when I got to Fuller and Buena Vista (??) I realized that for the past 30 minutes, I'd been hopelessly lost, driving around aimlessly. Normally this wouldn't even concern me, today it made me incredibly happy.

Hearing is one of those things i really take for granted. nothing has brought this out more than the combo of my emt class and my ASL class.

thinking about bodies and stuff. I would venture to say that most people don't think about the volume ofb lood that their heart pumps daily. most don't think about the intricate valves, circulation, vasodialation/constriction, boners, respiration, automaticity of the heart, and the stuff that might be obvious - let alone the incredibly complex reactions and stuff that goes on at the molecular/cellular level (stuff I havn't even touched yet and have almost NO understanding of)

But i just went for a run. more like a run/walk, but whatever. maybe my lungs are not quite up to par right now. more like.. i run for about 5 minutes and have to walk for another five because it feels like my trachea is on fire. i'm not tired or out of breath, just.. whatever.

anyways

i came back and just sat with my stethescope (I'M NOT COOL, OK?) and listened to my heart for like 10 minutes. ITS SO COOL. and when you take blood pressure, in between the systolic/diastolic when the blood is kinda squirting through the artery and you can hear it kinda go 'sssqqwwssshh' on every beat. and feeling your pulse. i just think it's all so amazing and complex. like it blows my mind to put up a $9 stethescope to my chest and hear the intricate opening and closing of the valves, squeezing and filling of ventricles and atriums and stuff and it's so vivid and real.

also it's good to be on track. i want emt class to be over. not because i'm sick of it but because i want to learn all of it. i can't wait for my clinicals. i can't wait to actually be a PART of patient care. as much as I know that I should probably gain experience as a basic emt, i want to move on to paramedic. everyone i have ever spoken to says medic school kicks your ass. GOOD. there is a lot to learn for EMT-B but it's not moving fast enough. i need it shoved into my brain, not just fed to me. i know ih ave an entire life to lean, i've got time, yadda yadda yadda. But after learning stuff that i didn't really care about for the past year and a half, can i really be blamed for wanting to absorb every detail that catches and holds my attention, and for wanting more? i think not.

sometimes i need life to slow down. right now is not that time. if life came at me a little faster, i promise, it wouldn't hurt.

hopefully the huron valley ambulance thing works out to be as good as i've heard. that would rock my shit.

seriously. life never ceases to amaze me.